Loves of my life...

My greatest joy- seeing my love holding our little girl

The most gorgeous girl in the world! 

Loving mommy before work

She is a daddy's girl!

Every good and perfect gift comes from above.

I cannot even begin to explain how in love with these two I am. I am reminded just how precious life is. My husband is the absolute love of my life and my little girl is the greatest joy and biggest blessing I've ever received. I'm more in love than ever before and my heart is full, filled to the brim. My marriage is better than it has ever been, not because life is easier but actually because life is harder. Having a child has made us work so much harder at communicating and loving each other on the good days and the bad days. Jas understands me and supports me without having to say a word. He is the worlds greatest dad and best friend anyone could ask for. My little love bug reminds me so much of the miracle of life. I've constantly gone through ultrasounds and pictures and marveled at the miracle she is. She went from being a little bitty nugget that flopped and wiggled inside of me to a beautiful girl with a large personality. She has only been with us a few months and she has already made life so much better. Life is totally worth living these days. Parenting is seriously so very hard. There are days,like today, that she screams all day and nothing I can do will make her happy but then there are 5 minutes during that day that she snuggles and smiles and coo's and it brings tears to my eyes and butterflies in my heart. She has such a huge personality. She knows what she wants and often get's just that. There is no denying where she gets that from. She is so full of life from the minute she wakes to the second she falls asleep. She knows her mommy and daddy and loves to see us come home. It's crazy how much she changes when our little family is together. It's like she feels peace and comfort when we are all together. She is one smart girl. She gives the biggest and best slobbery kisses. For the last few years I've always had a list of things I wanted to accomplish before I died, I guess you could say a bucket list, though it's not very long. I wanted to do only a few things.. get married and have a baby. My life is complete and now everything else is just icing and sprinkles on top of the cupcake! 

Life is all too short to forget what is important. Love. Family. Memories. and the one who gives all.. God. 

how do i feel

Today I am a little sad. My baby is getting so big, so fast. I have days that I've already forgotten about the newborn phase and I look back at her pictures and just think about how much time has passed. This month it will have been a year since we found out we were pregnant and to me it is sad. My pregnancy flew by and, as many first time parents, we did not capture enough. I don't remember the sick days, the small days, the fat days, the adventures.. anything! So so sad. Now, Lainey is almost 3.5 months old and we do not have enough memories captured. I wish we had taken more time to capture the moments so that we can have them to look back on. So I'm sad.

Life has been great, changing daily, but great. We have a lot of changes about to take place and if you know me you probably know that I do not do change well. Jas is about to jump into the next "chapter" of his life career wise and I am about to make a minor career change that hopefully will mean more family time and a better schedule for us all.

Work has taken so much time away from our family life and I just miss my hubs and baby.

Beware baby update/randomness ahead--

Lainey girl is between 11 and 12 pounds which is just crazy to me since she was only 5 lbs 14 oz when she was born. She has the cutest double chin/chubs and her constant drooling causes a funky odor in those little rolls. She eats strictly breast milk and I just cannot believe she is almost old enough for rice cereal. someone freeze time. please. please. please. She has blue eyes and blonde/brown hair. She wears size 3 to 6 month clothes and size 2 diapers. she hates wearing headbands but she will learn to love them. she loves her paci and swing. she has learned to sit up and stand on her legs.. she is so close to sitting by herself. big girl. she loves to coo and giggle when we make faces at her. she is so good on car rides and in public but acts crazy at home. she must be telling us it's time to get out more! I am head over heels in love with this girl and she is such a blessing in my life. To say I feel like I've found my purpose in life is an understatement. I cannot wait to show her what true unconditional love it. I think I need to go smooch her chubby cheeks right this second.

My goals for this fall include:
-getting outside in the nice weather..whenever it arrives.
-a few diy projects including a magnetic makeup board because frankly im tired of dropping my mac makeup on the floor.
-lose a little extra weight
-spend WAY more time making/capturing memories with my love and my little love
-spend more time with the boys..aka the dogs
-start shopping for christmas because after all a baby surely changes my last minute christmas shopping
-decorate my house for fall because a little pumpkin scent does the heart good

enjoy!