taking a break..

Hey Y'all!

I'm blogging today just to 'blog it out' i guess you could say! We're on Christmas break and I am SO happy! It feels so amazing to know that we've completed another semester of school and in 3 semesters i'll have RN(registered nurse) behind my name! We're officially 160 days away from our wedding day and there is so much to be done! At lunch this afternoon my family and I were talking about the wedding and I was saying how much time we don't seem to have and my aunt brought to my attention that we started with a lot of time to plan a wedding.. infact it was something like 530 days or something! Wow I just realized in 2 days it'll be a year since we got engaged!!! So we had 17 months to plan this wedding and we've pushed it to the max! So now it's really time to put my words into actions and get this show on the road! We're going to register next week! I'll be sure to post pictures.. i'm sure that will be interesting! and we are finalizing our guest list which is going to be terribly hard! We've seperated the guest list into 3 catagories.. those that MUST be invited, those that SHOULD be invited, and those that COULD be invited.. it's harder for Jason to cut people than it is for me but I still don't like the feeling of putting people on our COULD BE list.

My wedding dress is in and i'm soooo excited to see it altered even though it fit to a T before I'm hoping to see some extra fabric (aka: meaning i've lost weight! paha.. a girl can dream right?!) The girls BM dresses have been on back order because of fabric so i'm really ready to see them. We're going to get the guys ties and clothes in 2 weeks, we've got to book the food, print invites, get our address book in order so sending out invites isn't utter chaos! we're literally doing wedding stuff every week! We're going to look for fabric to cover my flower girl buckets! I'm feeling so crafty!

I feel like my blog is getting more boring to those that aren't involved in the wedding craziness so i'm going to add a picture of some friends and I from the festival of lights! Enjoy :)

Sorry it's so small!! I'm on the far right !

With Love from the South :)

nursing school has made me into the woman i never wanted to be..

nursing school has made me into
0 someone who enjoys cleaning, simply for the fact that it means i'm not studying
o someone who doesn't know what it feels like to not be stressed
0 someone who begs for anti-stress meds on a 24 hours basis
o somoene who is ALWAYS a grouch and never a giver..
0 someone who thinks everything is about me because there is never any 'ME' time
o someone who LOVES going to work because babies make me happy *not a bad thing*
0 someone who has not been on a date in months
o someone who doesn't recognize the little things in life, though they mean the most!
0 someone who doesn't recognize the difficulties in other lives
o someone who is never and optimist and always a pessimist.
0 someone who has aged more in 3 years than should be possible! (imbalanced nutrition:more than body requirements related to the stress of nursing school as evidenced by increase weight gain)

I couldn't believe i'd let myself get to this point.. and as i thought about it today i realized i don't have to be that person. I want to be the Jen who cares, is a giver to all, is caring, passionate about life, always a positive thinker, loves to participate in things not because it means i'm not studying but because my loved ones deserve my time. I want to quit fighting and start giving others what they deserve so that in a year when I look back I don't have to say look at all the time i've wasted but look at how much i've learned and grown up and managed all the things in life and still cared for others and made a difference!

So, my goal this week.. is to enjoy EVERYTHING. i want to enjoy studying, enjoy the times i'm at home, enjoy the day i can enjoy a date with the most amazing guy who has been neglected for far too long, i'm going to check things off my wedding list and not get stressed over the tiniest things like trying on a rehersal dinner dress or looking at wedding cakes!! After all, only 160-something days left!!

on a side note-i promise i will post pictures soon! the video doens't work for me so ill post pics :) love y'all!