In college I had a really hard time juggling nursing school and life. I stopped doing everything just to focus on school. I was stressed out mentally and physically because nothing ever seemed easy. After graduation I took a big sigh of relief thinking life was just going to be a walk in the park from here on out. After I graduated my lovely husband still had a year of school to finish so we figured okay one more year of this stress and everything will get easier! Then we realized Jas was not going to just jump right into a job like we had hoped. And then we started to think Okay we can do this, we have made it this far. Then we found out in October of 2011 that I was pregnant and we thought okay. maybe just maybe we will make it. Here we are and we have made it. It wasn't easy and it wasn't fun. We thought for sure things couldn't get any harder and here we are again. Hubs really wanted to join the air force reserves or the national guard to pay for unexpected student loans. After doing a ton of research we settled on one over the other and started pursuing that road. We thought the hard part was over and it would just be preparing for this huge transition. WRONG! Jas had surgery in 2006 from a shoulder injury he got while playing baseball in high school and it seems as though this may now disqualify him from serving. I cannot help but think to myself Why oh why does life have to be SO hard? Why must it be so easy for others and nothing gives for us. Now don't get me wrong I know life isn't easy on everyone. And we are so young and have so much of life ahead of us but life is just plain tough. So here we are trying to figure out where to go from here. We have made some changes and are just taking things one day at a time. Life is hard. Life is tough. But life is good.
We are alive and well. Most days we look at each other and say can we make it? Can we do this one more day? .. And we smile and hug each other and just keep going. We've concluded life might not get easier but that is why we have each other. I would not want to hurdle these obstacles in life with anyone else. Jas is my best friend. my only friend. my outlet. my support. my strength. a smile on a bad day. the glue that keeps us together.
So that's life. It isn't always pretty but there are some really awesome changes going on and I hope to blog about those with some pictures soon to update
