In a Rut

There are days that I just needed to blog because it makes me feel better... and today is one of those days.

I/We are in a rut as the real world has taken over and we have no time together. We spend 4 hours together one mondays, mostly all day saturday if neither of us have plans and then half of the day on sunday together. The weekdays in between we only see each other at like 1230 at night when I'm crawling into bed after getting off of work.

Many probably want to know why I work so late and why I can't just change my schedule but i don't want to. It works best for me and I can function better on an 11 to 11 work shift. I'm better at what I do and it's physically better on me.. but is it worth it at the cost of my marriage? Well no but it's better than working night shifts when I don't get to see my husband at night, so we just have to make it work.

These last 2 weeks have left me feeling very down and drained mentally, physically, and emotionally. Mentally I wish I would have enjoyed my honeymoon A LOT more since that has been the only time we've had together, physically I wish that I had more time to even do things for myself ( I work, go to school, clean the house, and sleep). Emotionally I wish I didn't feel so alone. I have more time in my day with my dog than I do my husband and it just isn't fair. Jason's busy with stuff to go out of town next week and I'm busy working and going to school so there just is no emotional rest or time to spend to mend all of these things.

You know.. When there is little time to even communicate it seems like the only other thing I'm doing it complaining.

I think i'll be excited for next week even though Jason will be out of town because I'll get some sleep (Jason takes up the ENTIRE bed so I get very little sleep), there will be a lot less laundry to do, I won't feel awful for working and going to school because he won't be home anyways, and maybe some time alone will help heal the rut.

I could seriously use some time with friends and family to take my mind off of this.. well really just some time with the husband would do.

That's all for now. I have a test in 3 hours and I must go study!

Adios.

Mumble Jumble

So today these things are on my mind

ONE- i love my new hair-do. stella nova you rock my world!

TWO- i love chick-fil-a sauce...did you ever know they had chick-fil-a sauce?? it's kinda like a gold bar-b-que sauce but it's delightful!

three- i miss my husband who has been working like crazy to support our family!

4- i have abandoned my dog who deserves lots of attention

five- my hubby's bday is coming up and i haven't made him a cake nor will i have time.

SIX- why wasn't i born rich?? i have so many things that i want to buy but we have to be 'frugal' now... bummer!

My Husband!

Dear Husband

I love you for everything you are. You are sweet, handsome, funny, and charming. You have so much to give and you offer that to many! You always try to make people smile and you often times succeed. You are my best friend and NOW my husband and I couldn't be more happy! You love me on my good days and even on my bad days. You handle me with patience and you rarely get mad or upset with me for nothing. You never take out your sleepiness or bad days on me (I should totally take a lesson from you!) You always ALWAYS try and please me before ever thinking about yourself. I think you rock and I'm pretty happy that you are mine...I hope when you read this you know how much I love you

and how thankful I am for you and all that you do for our 'little' family!

This is my husband Jason and he seriously makes me happy! (I love this picture because we look so young! I know in 10 years we will look back and laugh!)

life lately

Lately we've been adjusting to married life.. just trying to get back in the swing of things. when we were on our honeymoon we agreed that when we got home we would do more things. We made a promise to each other to start hanging out with friends, planning parties and cookouts, going bowling or to the movies, doing adventurous things or splurging on deep sea fishing. Now, we aren't spending all of our money on fun stuff but we wanted to say that we were living each day to the fullest and doing things that when we looked back we could have memories of forever!

So we've had a cookout with friends, painted our bathroom, went to dinner and hung out with family, jason has made cornhole games, had a play date for huxley with some friends, took huxley swimming in the intercoastal, tried some new recipes, planned a trip to Atlanta for Jason's birthday, and we're planning a trip to the islands for next summer! We're looking for kayaks so that we can go on a camping/kayak trip down Edisto, too!

I think the best decision we've made was to live everyday to the fullest so that we don't look back and think man we grew up too fast! We're so so young and we have so much of life ahead of us and we can not wait for trips in the future and making more memories of us!

I'm so so happy with life that I couldn't be happier! We're having so much fun being married. And yes the bills and insurance SUCK so so bad but it's small in comparison to life together! We're so happy together and happy with the friends that we have in our lives. We know that there is a plan for us and we are enjoying SO much what is ahead for us. We know it won't be butterflies and sunshine but we're soaking up the days as they come, taking each day one day at a time, and we are prepared to take the storms together and live each day like it's our last!

honeymoon continued....

On day two of our honeymoon we hung out by the "quiet" pool thinking that would be really relaxing...however, it was a drag. So we nixed the quiet pool and went to the activity pool which was an infinity pool and was very nice and a lot more fun for a young couple. Day two was our chill day we didn't do much of anything to brag about.

Day three of our honeymoon we ventured out to the flea market. We took the city bus to a flea market that was 15 minutes away. It was so nice yet they definitely didn't know how to leave people alone. I was attached to jason's arm the ENTIRE time we were in there. They had great things and we bought a few odds and ends. We headed back to the hotel a few hours later and napped. Then dinner and another show. Which I think was a cirque de soleil mexican style show.

Day four we had another day by the pool! As gorgeous as the blue waters in Mexico are. The pool was way more entertaining and the heat from the sun was very very hot on the beach so we never really explored but down there. We also had a romantic couples massage that was AMAZING! All I can say was jason really enjoyed it and I loved having an excuse to get a massage! It was so quaint and cozy and it was very romantic!

Day five of our honeymoon we went to another flea market and city shops that was about an hour away from our hotel. We took the city bus which would have been fine but we told the driver we wanted to go to the market and he drove right passed it so we had to walk and walk and walk to get to where we wanted to go. We were literally walking though run down neighborhoods. BUT the people were so nice and helpful and gave us easy directions and advice to take a taxi on the way home! We spent some time at that flea market which was GORGEOUS! So colorful and not as busy as the other market. We bought a few more things including the vanilla that got confiscated in customs for being over 3 ozs. We got a taxi home and then just laid around that afternoon. None of the buses or markets have AC so by the time we got home we were worn out! We also tried to go to some shopping mall like Outlets in mexico but the prices were in pesos and we just couldn't do the conversion so we didn't do much shopping! That night we went to a fire show after dinner and it was very very cool. It was on the beach and the weather was perfect!

Day six of our honeymoon we made arrangements to go zip lining as an included excursion. I LOVED zip lining when we went to Jamaica but this experience was TOTALLY different. The platforms were man made and not in the Jungle like I had expected. They totally rushed you through the entire thing. I couldn't even turn around to see jas go so we got NO pictures. And they made you walk on poles sticking out of the ground that were very much spaced WAY too far apart for someone who is 5"1 and I was freaking out. Jason was behind me the whole time and was a GREAT encourager. I froze in the middle of the course like 4 times and he just kept telling me you can do it Jen, Keep going, I'm right behind you! I LOVE MY HUSBAND! So they talked us into another activity while we were there that was a complete waste of $169. They were called buckshot boats or something like that and they flew around the jetties at "top notch speeds" which turned out to be a tin boat made in the 70's that went 80 miles an hour. HUGE waste of money. We got back and had a romantic dinner set up in our room. We had great expectations for this but it was terrible! The setting was romantic and they made us a sign and it was so pretty but the food was terrible! So we went downstairs and ate sushi and mexican! I have a picture of jason trying sushi for the first time and he was NOT a fan!

Day 7 was another pool day. we also ventured out onto the beach for just a little while to take some pictures! this day was our final goodbye to cancun and our relaxing day. Jason made me a mani/pedi appointment and it was lovely! We packed and had dinner and then saw our final show which was an anything can happen show! we had to answer trivia, articles find where women were taking their clothes off for us to get points (CRAZY!) and then do the train around the lobby of our hotel!

Day 8 we woke up and had breakfast and then headed to the airport!

Overall, it was a great relaxing vacation. We enjoyed each other company and we got some much needed time away from the rest of the world! We are looking forward to many more vacations and we're hoping to get away next summer to Costa Rica or maybe we'll pick some place else! Wherever we go it will be fun and i'm soooo excited!

That concludes our honeymoon and i'll post pictures as soon as I get them off of my computer!

Honeymoon

Our honeymoon was a little bit different than we expect...now, don't get me wrong we enjoyed our relaxing vacation! We left our house at 515 the next morning after our wedding which meant very little sleep for us (which we were both very worried about because I don't function well without sleep). We had a smooth check in and we didn't wait long before our plane boarded and we were off to Miami! We arrived in Miami at like 850 and our plane boarded at 1030 (however we added an hour so it was more like a 3 hour layover with the time change).. while we were at Miami I slept and slept and slept and then we got some food and then got on our plane to Cancun! We arrived in Cancun at 1150 and then we had to go through customs and passport stuff. We had prearranged transportation so that was VERY nice. We hopped on our bus and were off to our hotel. The best thing was that our hotel was a very short ride from the hotel! We got to our hotel and they gave me a white carnation and we both got some tropical beverage! We got checked in and got the details of the hotel then headed to our room. I was expecting a super cute room with flowers and stuff like that but it was just the normal hotel room. Our resort was very very nice. We got in and sat on our balcony on the 8th floor and overlooked the activity pool. We ordered mini cheeseburgers and just hung out. Then we decided to adventure around the hotel and see what was around. We went to the beach for a short walk and then I think we got ready for dinner. The first night we went to the mexican restaurant where I had burrito's and jason got fajita's...can I just prepare you for how many times I'm going to say I loved the salsa and guacamole.YUM! That night we went to the Michael Jackson show which was entertaining!

Hope you enjoyed our first day as honeymooners! We will be posting more later with pictures! As we are at 20 days of marriage it is almost hard for me to remember everything we did so i'm going to try and post soon so that I truly don't forget things that I will want to remember!

the DRESS

My goal for this post is to remember everything I possibly can about the wedding...so here we go.

Firstly I must add that the sunday of my wedding-week came and I was just relaxing at my house waiting for my grandma and mom to come over and visit me. They get there and I decided to try on my dress. Now, let me remind you that I took my bridal portraits a few months before the wedding and got my dress a little dirty so I took it to the dry cleaners. Well I hadn't tried to dress on since getting it back from the cleaners because I thought all would be well... NOT SO MUCH! I tried it on for my mom and my grandma and my blatantly honest mom said it's a lot tighter than it was, which was obvious to me because I could feel a fat roll in my backside by the zipper. So we said well maybe I should just keep it on and a few minutes later it seemed a LIIITTTTLEEE less snug. (all the while i was having major issues breathing in the thing) So my mom says well maybe you should stretch...GREAT IDEA? (No BAD BAD idea) So I stretched and started getting a little more air in my lungs and then..dun dun dun.. i tried to touch my toes and so i started thrusting towards the ground with my arms a few times. and then IT HAPPEND.. we heard a wrrriiippp (fabric breaking, popping, shredding) the only thing i could think to do was say NO, NO, NO that didn't just happen.. and LAUGH (and then freak out) my mom and grandma are on the back sides of me and I hear some foul words and then my grandma said, "ohhhh NOOOOOOOO" and then trying to cover up the dreadful situation say, "ohhh NOOOOOO it's NOT THAT BAD!!" We took the dress off and the entire seam had wripped right down the zipper. At this point I started counting the days.. Monday-1, Tuesday-2, Wednesday-3, Thursday-4, FRIDAY-5... 5 days until I'm supposed to get married in this dress. So we made some emergency calls and this lady that we knew was suppose to fix it and let a little out. Took it to her on monday and she said she'd have it to me by wednesday. Thursday came around and I FINALLY got the dress and decided to try it on. Well I looked at it for a few hours and ignored it because I DREADED the dress at this point. Then we took showers (as we were getting atleast 15 people ready for the rehearsal at one house... and I thought, i'm feeling skinnier let's try it now. So we stuffed my fat-behind into the dress and DUN DUN DUN... (situation- I had my cousin holding my boobs together, jomarie was holding my back fat together, my mom was trying to zip the dress, i'm not breathing- i was thinking skinny and some how trying to metamorphasize my body into the shape it needed to be to fit in the dress) so back to the story... my mom can't get the zipper up.. we got the dress back from the lady who was 'supposed' to fix the dress and there was still a LARGE hole in the seam of my zipper. I FREAKED out... and I mean I freaked..started counting days again.. Friday-less than 24 hours away... LESS THAN A DAY AWAY AND THAT DRESS NEEDED TO FIT ME! Thank the Lord that a family member from florida had arrived less than thirty minutes before and was able to stitch the dress. She gave it a good look..told me what I needed and Jomarie and I headed to Target less than an hour before we were supposed to be at the rehearsal dinner. The trip should have taken 3o minutes round trip..we made it to the target and back to the beach house in 16 minutes!! So my family member Eva stitched the dress while we were at the rehearsal and at dinner she told me she had double stiched the seams and that it was FIXED!!! I tried it on at like 1130 that night because she suggested i wear it for 30 minutes...still very very tight but atleast it zippered. Little by little the dress was getting more bearable to wear..so I got out of the dress after my 30 minutes were up and put it away and prayed for the best for the next day. The wedding day came and I was in the men's bathroon with Kristen while my uncle was getting ready and men were walking in left and right... all i could think about was the dress. kristen pulled the dress up and I kept asking her, " is it gonna fit? please tell me it's going to fit" she was sooo reassuring.. she kept saying don't worry it's going to fit. Finally we got to the zipper and i held my breath and she said OH YEA this is gonna fit NO PROBLEM! After all of that hassle the dress fit to a tee!! And that is the story of my wedding dress!

Disclaimer** I didn't do a diet so I did gain weight before the wedding but the dress didn't fit because of the weight I gained/or didn't gain.. it didn't fit because IT SHRUNK at the dry cleaners. All of the shrinkage was in my bust area and around my rib cage... NOTE- to everyone getting married..do not take your dress to the dry cleaners before the wedding and if you do please go on a serious diet or try it on like 5 times a day before the wedding!**

My wedding dress was perfect and the BEST dress I could have imagined. I did so many alterations to it but it was MY perfect dress!

Enjoy!! Another posting will be coming soon!